Hello my Darlings,

My name is Tabitha, aka Lil Miss Wolfy.

I dont expect alot of people to read these's blog (or anyone to be honest), but I guess as much as I like my life to be private, I'm still an exhibitionist at heart.

I think everyone is an exhibitionist. But they either dont know it or they dont think they are. Like we are all voyeurs. You may think that it only applies to people who like to watch porn etc, but really it applies to everything. Reading magazines about our people's lives, who watch the news. We're always watching and always being watched. After watching 'The Truman Show' I became rather paranoid about everything I did, honestly believing I was in the same situation as Jim Carey's character.

I do get rather paranoid about everything these days. When my boyfriend is away living at his dad's I'm convinced he's screwing every girl he can get his hands on. Just the other day he went to a wedding. All those girls, dressed up, alchohol. I spent the whole day close to tears.

I think my paranoia in my relationships comes from a lack of trust. I cannon trust men. They all say the same things, they all lie. I cannot believe them. i'm trying my best though, right now with Brent. He is so sweet and loving. 90% of my boyfriends have never been the way he has. Actually, my last boyfriend was this sweet. but he cheated on me. I still dont blame him though. He was drunk and Bek is controlling. But its over now.

Anyway, back to my topic.

I'm still having issues with my trust. I'm sure some day I'll be ok. I have never actually had a relationshipp last long enough for me to gain the proper trust required to make something like that last. But now, I'm older now, and I've had time to think bout the way things work. I hope to keep everyone who does read this, and who actually follows this, updated on my current relationship.

I think this is all I wanted to say.

Goodnight my loves,

Tabi